Thursday, December 3, 2009

Let's Try This Again

It's been a while since I've posted anything other than a Wordless Wednesday picture, but I'm going to try to change that starting today.

Richard and I aren't adopting Shiloh's brother. There I said it. Whew! That's a huge weight off my shoulders. Most everyone knows already anyway, but I guess to blog about it makes it so final and definite. It's been hard for me to come up with anything to blog about lately because this has been on my mind so much and, like I said, to put it out here makes it so final, and I guess part of me was hoping there would be another way. Anyway. We informed Kim of our decision back in September and she has since then spoken with some couples in the metro Atlanta area and has hopefully found parents for him. We are hoping to have limited contact with the couple so Shiloh can still know her brother.

Don't ask why we changed our minds. I can give you all of the reasons in the world, but in the end none of them seem to justify this outcome. It was a tough, heartbreaking decision to make, but, as with everything, God has a plan. For whatever reason, it seems this boy was not meant to be ours. I just pray that when Shiloh is old enough to understand all of this she won't hold this decision against us.


Jenn said...

I always read your blog... I am not even sure now how I came Upon it! Maybe I dont remember. Anyway your little girl is adorable. Huggs to u on your decision about adopting her brother. I am sure it was a tough one for u.
(both my babes are adopted. 18 months and 4.5)

KatieLizziSmith said...