And Now We Wait

I think we've hit the calm before the storm. The good storm, of course.

Tuesday, the day we received the final word from Kim, was a day full of excitement, anxiety, and nauseousness (I'm not kidding). Wednesday, I was just a mess. Yesterday morning, I was able to speak with our attorney for longer than two minutes, and she was able to calm my nerves and give me some peace. Today, I feel pretty good about it all.

Shiloh and I have spent the last few days shopping for essential baby items, and registering for the non-essentials that we can initially do without. A handful of amazing friends have been waiting and hoping for this so they could throw us a baby shower, or a meet the baby shower, in our case. We were not able to have a baby shower with Shiloh, so I'm very excited and very grateful to these friends.

Shiloh is also very excited. She knew there was a possibility that the baby would be "coming to live with us". I wasn't sure when Kim would make her decision, and I wanted Shiloh at least somewhat prepared for a baby in the house. When I told Shiloh Kim's decision, she jumped up and down and yelled, "Yay! Yay! Yay! Now I will have someone to play with!" We've reminded her that the baby won't be much of a playmate for the first few months, but she still seems to be excited. Yesterday, she helped me wash and put away all of the baby clothes we have, and pick out a few items to pack in the diaper bag. Every time we go to the store she insists on buying something for her baby sister, and I can't tell you how many times she has asked me when the baby is coming. Also, after some convincing from us, she has decided that her car seat does not have to be in the middle of the backseat, "right next to her sister's".

It warms my heart to see the love Shiloh already has for this new baby. I'm sure we'll hit some bumps once the baby is here and Shiloh has to face the fact that she is no longer the center of our attention, but I like to think that this love I see in her will only continue to grow.